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Feelings!!!
Hmmm... Just wanna blurt out all the feelings that I have these days.
1) Lack of sexual urge for my boyfriend. Is it really me? I know na isa ako sa pinakamalibog na tao sa buong mundo pero bakit ganun? ILang buwan na kaming di nagsi-sex ng boyfriend ko. Huhuhu. I know he always look so cute, hot and sexy for me pero bakit ganoon? Every night and every morning, he shows the signs of horniness, and I feel horny as well pero parang di ko magawang makipag-sex sa kanya. I'm not cheating on him. Kung meron man akong gustong makasex, siya lang iyon pero bakit ganoon? At night bago matulog, harutan kami ng harutan. Lambingan nang lambingan at makikita mo sa kanya na super hot na siya sa akin at dinudunggol-dunggol na niya ang naninigas niyang ari sa akin pero I ended up falling asleep. In the morning, same thing happens, he doesn't want me to leave at pinapahawak niya ang ano niya sa akin pero wala pa rin, mas ginugusto ko pang umalis na lang para pumasok.
Hay, I'm so afraid na baka dito e hiwalayan niya ako... Huhuhu. Wag naman sana. I love him so much, I just need to find the urge to have sex with him. Kailangan ko na ba ng robust? I hope you will comment you advice here.
2) Lack of time for my boyfriend and his family. I wake up 6am and leave 7AM. I leave the office 9PM and arrive home 11-12Midnight. When I wake up, my boyfriend's asleep and he wakes up before I leave. When I arrive home, most of the time he's asleep and I have to wake him up and chat with him for a couple of minutes, flirt for a couple of minutes and sleep. There are also times when I can arrive early and I can talk to his family but most of the time, I'm just too tired to listen to our discussion. I just wanted to lie down and sleep.
3) Lack of patience. If my boyfriend will read this, he would surely laugh because he would certainly agree. At times, when I have time to not go to work, I spend most of the time with him. But, most of the time he will text me that he became angry because I am answering him foully. Palagi daw ako sumasagot ng pabalang, pasigaw o papilosopo. I am aware of this pero di ko napipigilan. Most of the time, kahit kanino, I feel na yung sinasabi nila ay illogical, pointless, trivial or too obvious. Naiirita ako palagi na may mga tinatanong sa akin na para sakin e napaka-obvious ng sagot, o yung sagot e nasa tanong na, yung statement e napaka-pointless na parang di naman na kailangang sabihin. Di ko alam kung nalahian yata ako ni Vice Ganda sa ilang beses kong kakapanuod ng Praybeyt Benjamin sa sinehan kaya masyado na akong pilosopo, pero honestly, di ko mapigilang mairita.
4) Lack of drive to save. I need help na. Sobrang magastos na ako. Di naman ako na-deprive noong bata ako ng mga masasarap na pagkain. Pero bakit ganito? Everyday, yung almusal ko bago pumasok sa office e Venti Cranberry White Chocolate Mocha Frappuccino (see picture above) at nag-promise pa ako sa sarili ko na bago matapos ang November e makukuha ko na yung planner. Waah! Lunch ko 90% delivery:
Amici
KFC
McDonalds
Max's
Andok's
Sinangag Express
Adobo Republic
Karate Kid
and Reyes Barbecue
10% Dine in
Dinner ko 40% sa Greenbelt, take note, mag-isa either sa:
Bubba Gump
Recipe
Haiku
and Ilocano Northshore
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Sana naman matuto na akong magtipid. Huhuhu.
Dahil dito, naisipan kong magkaroon ng review posts ng mga places na napuntahan ko. Hehehehe.
5) Lack of exercise. Huhuhu! Pangit na yata katawan ko ngayon. Tumataba na. Paano kasi bihira na ako tumayo. Palagi na me nakaupo sa office. Lalabas lang ako kung may kailangan bilhin para sa office. Oo nga pala. Update lang po. Administrative Manager na ako. Kaso ang work ko e ako lang mag-isa ang gumagawa sa admin./HR/IT/Purchasing/Maintenance etc. Di naman ako nagrereklamo. As in super mahal ko ang mga boss ko kahil wala naman sila dito. Dahil nasa Hong Kong office sila at ako lang ang iniiwan dito para mag-alaga ng mga employees namin dito. Yup, most of the time nakaupo lang ako. Hay! Sarap buhay! Malapit na lumaki tiyan ko. Di na ako sexy. Nawawala na ang Jake Cuenca physique ko... kakainis! Dagdagan pa ng palagi naming pagpasok ng kuya ng boyfriend ko na naka-taxi lang. Di na kami nagji-jeep, tren o bus. Ewan ba namin kung sadyang patamad kami nang patamad na palagi na kaming nag-taxi. Kagabi nga lang ako nakapag-LRT e. Traffic kasi. Dagdag pounds na naman ako. Konting lakad lang sumasakit na binti at sakong ko. Bad!
6) Lack of health consciousness... Yes, malaking problema ko ito ngayon. Wala naman akong sakit na malala talaga ever since. Pero right now marami na akong nararamdaman. Most of the time, sumasakit na ang dibdib at batok ko. Kakakain ng MSG sa mga pagkain sa fastfood at kawalan ng exercise. Tapos ilang beses me nilagnat in 1 week. Hay. Sana wag na bumalik. Sumabay pa ang ubo at sipon ko e di trangkaso.
Siguro, magsimula na me ng New Year's Resolution ko kahit maaga pa. Baka kasi sa katamaran ko e di me umabot ng New Year. Joke! Manunuod pa kami ng New Year's Eve na movie no.
I love you all.
Mwah.
Pre, stress lang yan. Pupuwede kasi na sa pagkain mo din dinddivert ung stress mo para mawala kahit papanu. Para naman bumalik ung sex urge mo, idaan mo sa exercise yan at babalik din yan.
ReplyDeletehmmm. let me see if these will help:
ReplyDeletePROB#1 LACK OF SEXUAL URGE
Maybe you are just now in a point of what you call "stable relationship"? Where sex is just an accessory to the relationship, and not a necessity. Just hope that your bf looks at it that way. When one falls in love, his strength becomes his weakness. An intelligent person will suddenly find himself a fool when loving. A brave person becomes so scared of being left by his loved one. And now... a horny person like you turns to be the opposite.
Now about the worrying na baka hiwalayan ka na because of that... I'll incorporate my answer with problems 2 and 3:
I'm going to teach you something. There are 5 expressions of love. These are ways how a person shows his love to someone. Each person has a unique way, and a second back-up:
1. WORDS - These people like to affirm their affection and love through words like saying ï love you, i miss you, you're beautiful, you're cute."
2. TOUCH - These people show their love and care through their skin. Holding hands, petting, caressing, and you know what i mean.
3. GIFTS - Those who always give gifts, material things... Stuffed toys, chocolates, cards, etc.
4. SERVICE - People who take good care of their special someone by doing things for them. Cooking food, bubuhatin ang bag ng bf, susunduin, hahatid, etc.
5. TIME - These are people who don't care about anything else as long as you are with them. Spending time with them matters so much cause they want your companionship. Kahit katabi ka lang niya ok na.
Now.. i suggest you try to find out your main expression and secondary expression. Then try to find out your bf's expression. This is important so that you can relate to each other perfectly.
Example, your expression is WORDS (judging by the fact na mahilig ka magsulat), and your bf's is TOUCH; kung hindi sya verbal (saying i love u), you will feel na parang di ka nya mahal and will cause you doubts. Cause you understand love through WORDS. While on the other hand, kung di ka naman mahilig sa PDA, or holding hands or hindi ka touchy... baka isipin din nya ayaw mo sya. Now.. you have to speak through his language of love.. para maintindihan ka nya. Ganoon din naman siya.. he needs to speak in your way of expression para maramdaman mo na mahal ka nya.
That's why it's a relationship... You need to RELATE to each other. Understanding, trust and loyalty.
PROB#4 SAVING
Ako din may problema dito tol. Sabi nga nila, you need to save 10% of your income palagi. Why not ask your bf to help you account your gastos and pagalitan ka pag magastos ka na. hahaha
PROB#5 LACK OF EXERCISE
pareho tayo, di na nakakapagGYM, though ang prob ko naman pumapayat ako. I do it for weight gain kasi. Im an ectomorph. Discipline is the key. Madaming gym sa makati. Or kahit push up lang pag gising. Dapat maglakad ka nalang wag magtaxi hahah.
PROB#6 HEALTH CONSCIOUSNESS
True na pag nagwork ka na, you are exposed to all the MSG and TRANSFAT. Puro fastfood puro processed foods. So now you have cut on those. Baon ka ng saging or any fruits. Start with fruits. Magtubig nalang lagi, wag na softdrinks or tea.
Hope na-appreciate mo advices ko.
It's me. Kilala mo ko. :)
@Matt... Grabe... mas mahaba pa comment mo sa post ko ah.... hahaha... anyway, Matt thank you... alam ko kung sino ka... hahaha
ReplyDeletei agree with matt sa problem #1... ganyan na kami ng partner ko ngayon. You don't have to make your relationship revolve around sex naman eh. But you also have to know that as his partner, you also have to give his needs as a man.
ReplyDeleteExpense Management Issue:
Well, I would say may issue din ako dito, so welcome to the club. Pero ganito, you have to talk to your partner about this. If hindi mo kayang ibudget ang money mo, you can ask your bf to budget it for you. Siya ang pahawakin mo ng money mo para macontrol ang flow of expenses. Trust me, it's effective (ganyan kasi ginagawa namin ngayon.)
@Prince of ASgard... thanks for the advice as well
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